Yesterday was my scan day in Boston. As I laid & prayed on the mri table, I held the call button in my left hand & extended my right arm out on the table with my palm up. I have done this at every scan over the past five years, & did it as well during my treatments five years ago.
Why do I do this?
In God’s word, it is written, “For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand & says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.” - Isaiah 41:13
When I lay down, I don’t know what the outcome of the scan will be. Will the cancer be back or will I get more time to live cancer free?
To help me fight through the unknown, I open my right hand & picture Jesus in the room with me holding my hand, reminding me I am never alone in this journey, or any other.
As I sat in the room waiting my my doctor to give me the results, I sat there heart thumping yet with my palms up again. “For better is one handful of tranquility that two hands grasping at the wind.” I repeatedly shared my hearts desires with God but also trusted Him no matter the outcome.
When the doctor came in & shared the scans looked good a wave of gratitude washed over me.
(I know not everyone gets the same results so may we keep those who scans aren’t clear in our prayers)
I am sharing this today for anyone walking in the unknown of any kind. I invite you to join me to…
pause. breathe. pray.
Even when we may physically be alone, may we remember we are never alone. May we open our right hand as an invitation for Jesus to hold our hand and join us on the journey. He wants to help us but will never force his presence upon us. He’s the gracious friend waiting beside us, loving us, respecting us where we are, and will be there for us anytime, any day, in every way.
I know this is a little out there to picture Jesus sitting beside us. I share this as someone who didn’t really believe in God over a decade ago. Yet as someone who gave Him a chance & invited Him in, I can say, His love & Word are transformational & have helped me over & over & over again- & I wholeheartedly believe the same will be true for you too.
Palms up.
With love & hope,
Shawn