Three years ago today my ENT found my tumor. When I replay that day in my head, so many emotions come up. I have allowed myself to be in those for a bit this morning. Yet I won’t allow myself to live there all day because, as I have learned, this day is a gift, as is every one we get. The one emotion I am going to choose to hold onto is gratitude. I am beyond grateful to be here today to experience this day with my family.

I share this with you today for the awareness that survivors, of all kinds, have days like this. Where a date can bring us back to our past and have us replay in our heads hard moments. Please just be present with us on these days, and know you don’t need to fix things, or try to make it better. Sometimes we just need to move through these moments, as a continued part of our healing.

And for those of you who have these days, like I do, I invite you to join me to...

pause. breathe. pray.

And may we live out the truth in these words. May we allow ourselves to go back to that day but may we not allow the pain of our past to speak louder than the promises of our future. And for those who can still get paralyzed at the idea of what our future looks like, like I can sometimes, may we trust in God’s plan and promises, more than our own plans or expectations. By trusting in God’s promises may all be well in our soul so we can make the best of this day, and life, we have been given.💕🙏💕

With love and hope,
Shawn

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.” -Proverbs 3:5-6